More Thinking About the Future
Aug. 12th, 2020 10:27 pmHere is the most recent progression of possible career/school ideas I've gone through over the last week or so (and that, for the most part, I've been stuck on mostly ever since graduating this past May...):
law school
library science
law librarian
english literature
community college professor
marriage & family (re-named this fall at CSULB to "counseling psychology")
some sort of program within the college of education that also has to do with counseling?
>> "graduate certificate in community college" would definitely be worth checking out if i can get into one of these ed/counseling programs
I'm starting to finally shift into not just the mindset but also the actions of a successful and accountable adult. I've been laid off since March from my job of eleven years (with a weird two weeks where I got re-hired and did orientation for what few employees we were going to bring back, only to go back into lockdown) and I realize this is an excellent opportunity to get my personal shit figured out.
It's so necessary, too. Over the past two months, I've been suffering from health anxiety hard. The problems keep evolving. Not totally unwarranted, but I've been trying to better reign myself in because I did kind of spiral out hard. Might have lost a job opportunity because of that, but c'est la vie. Taking that job would not have worked out with any sort of program that would require observation hours, which is like...all of them.
So I am taking steps to improve my physical and mental health. Yesterday marked two whole months of daily meditation without a single day missed! and one whole month of daily gratitudes. I'm going to keep going without a doubt. Before bed each night I write down at least five things I am grateful for and then spend at least ten minutes meditating. As I alter my sleep schedule, I think I might try to meditate in the morning rather than at night so it has a more noticeable affect on that day. Evelyn starts third grade (online, thank goodness -- and the buffoons here in SoCal are suing the governor over it!) in less than a month, so I'm going to try to shift with her into an earlier bedtime.
Wow, I'm all over the place. Anyway, for school currently, I am leaning towards applying to the Counseling Psychology degree. Applications for Fall 2021 are available starting October 1st, and I've already requested an invite to one of their Zoom information seminars. We will see if I have any other change of heart between here and then. Honestly, most of my other ideas were nixed after spending time researching them further. Mostly because of COVID. I feel confident that counseling will be in high demand, considering the global and national trauma occuring... I don't only want to get into the program to profit, but I feel that it will help me personally along the way. I've always been interested in personal development and perhaps I will gain greater insight during my education. That might not be a good way of going about things - I know therapists need therapists, etc., but still. I don't want to sound like I am just in it to exploit those who are at their most fragile! No way! But, given my lackadaisical approach to my education, career, and LIFE over all, I want to be strategic when going for this—whatever my next this is.
Anyway, damn, writing feels good. I've gotten so rusty, especially when it comes to writing about myself. I've gotta do this more. I feel like there is a whole part of me that is closed up, and I'd like to explore this. Often I feel at a loss when it comes to anything creative or free-flowing. Another reason why I should take back up hooping on the daily during my time at home! But I've been toying with the idea of trying to get ahold of an iPad to try my hand at digital illustration. Not that I think I would be any good at it in the slightest, but I have a want to try to be good. I've been thinking a bit about the importance of creating things, especially art, and I don't want to have never tried it beause of self-limiting beliefs. Without writing down my options, though, I get overwhelmed and then just back off entirely. Maybe this is better for another post.
Hope you're all doing well. Xx.